很久没有看到这类电影了.故事平淡,但是电影却很有力度.情节,画面,对话,音乐,一切都配合地很出色.

曾经辉煌一时的摔跤王Randy在88年之后,过了20年的没落生活.曾经擂台上的霸主,拥有无数粉丝,有以自己为主题的游戏,有以自己为主题的公仔,别人家里贴着他的海报,他的招牌式Ram Jam被人津津乐道.

他自己住在集装箱改造的出租房里,因为付不起房费而被房东换锁,在学校的体育馆里表演摔跤来赚钱,在超市买熟肉,爱上脱衣舞娘,多次令女儿失望,被当面说从此不想再见他.他因为注射激素过度表演使得自己心脏负荷过重导致心肌梗塞,被医生说从此不能再摔跤……

可能这个是典型的一类人.在赛场上他是曾经的佼佼者,然而岁月不饶人,现在除了曾经的辉煌什么都没有了.现实生活中,自己完全是一个fucked-up.没有完整的家庭,身体状况很差,穷困潦倒,靠在超市打工度日.被人在超市认出自己是以前的摔跤王后心中的委屈,对生活的不满,对自己的不满一下被激发出来,对着经理大喊"I’m quitting!” 唯一能找回自己只能回到擂台上,干自己在行的,自己热爱的.或许在擂台上,听着观众欢呼他的名字,他才能忘了生活的现实,做回曾经的自己,哪怕有时这伴随着巨大的代价.

坦白说,我也不知道他应该怎么办,就像他不知道自己应该怎么办一样.或许这就是他的人生.生活往往就是这么矛盾.明明自己想和女儿和好,结果自己还是又一次令女儿失望;明明自己是个摔跤手,结果心脏手术后,被告知自己再也不能摔跤了;好不容易能在超市工作,却又受不了人生的大起大落;一个摔跤冠军沦落到如此地步……此刻令我想起了第一滴血里面的rambo,越战英雄,回国后连加油站的工作都找不到,还被人骂是婴儿杀手.大环境的改变有时令人无法适应,忍受与理解.所以在结局的时候,Randy还是回到了摔跤台;Rambo在第二第三部还是回到了战场.那才是他们属于的地方.

影片最后Randy忍受着心脏的巨痛,再一次在观众的欢呼中作出了他的招牌动作Ram Jam.

片尾曲唱出了Randy的心声.

These things that have comforted me, I drive away.
This place that is my home I cannot stay.
My only faith's in the broken bones and bruises I display.

Then you've seen me, I come and stand at every door
Then you've seen me, I always leave with less than I had before
Then you've seen me, bet I can make you smile when the blood, it hits the floor
Tell me, friend, can you ask for anything more?
Tell me can you ask for anything more?

完.

这是我第8个AIESEC conference.第二次到香港.第二次international conference.

这次七天的conference,可以说使我对AIESEC的认识上升了一个档次.虽说OC的组织不尽如人意,会议设施并不理想,但是多谢各位faci的努力,这次的经历还是很enriching.

1. Faci

首先我就想说说APX的faci.个人最喜欢Mauricio,他是AI VP Organizational Development & Strategy.我几乎在split track参加了所有他的session. 他来自巴西. 目前31岁.27岁加入的AIESEC,第一年returned EP + Member, 第二年MC VP FINANCE,第三年巴西MCP, 第三年AI VP.相信这样的AIESEC CAREER PATH的人不多吧.足见他的实力.

他使我理解了,BSC,理解了AIESEC WAY, AIESEC 2010, AIESEC XP, PRODUCT LEADERSHIP和BSC的关系,理解了MISSION和VISION的区别,理解了如何PRIORITIZE,理解了如何做PLANNING & TRACKING,理解了为什么STRATEGY叫STRATEGY. 本想请他作我的MENTOR,不过身为AI VP,而且又不在新加坡,还是极不方便.不过他还是答应了KEEP IT IMFORMAL,给了我他的NAME CARD,说有什么需要帮助的就联系他.

MY NEW ROLE MODEL!

2. Chair

Chair是来自UBS的Shantanu,AIESEC BSC的创始人.传奇人物.虽然他没有做任何session,但是还是能够感受到他的强大.可惜没有能够有足够时间和他多多交流.可惜可惜.

听说DIANA在参加她的APX的时候她的faci就是Shantanu,很受激励.

AIESEC BSC创始人 – Shantanu.

3. Ideas

这次conference,尤其是XPRO track的讨论,让我得到了很多IDEA,如何RUN AIESEC,什么样的资源我们还没有用到,在APGN,在新加坡,还有什么样的机会,怎么样的人才算是GOOD LEADER,负面的example又是如何.七天的conference,我的notes记了差不多30页. 一定要follow up!

4. SUGAR CUBES

收到了很多.这里想分享两条.

a)

Yunzhou:

I’m so glad that I got the chance to meet you and hear your perspective on different subjects. You’re a really cool guy and you have so much to contribute to AIESEC. Thank you for helping to remind me of why I’m in AIESEC. Because it’s people like you who make this organization so amazing. If you’re not already thinking about it, think about running for MC. Because you would be amazing.

                                                                                               ---- Georgia (Australia MC)

b)

Dear Sheng:

Thanks a lot. My English is very poor, but you talk with me. I’m very glad. I try to prepare English after AP. See you later.

                                                                                    ---- Hiroko (Japan LCPe)

这两条是最让我意外的.从没想到自己的所作所为能够对别人有IMPACT.

我想说的是,也是这些人让我重新认识了自己,让我知道了自己为什么在AIESEC.谢谢你们!

5. FRIENDS

在APX又遇到了老朋友. Dominic, Delton & Sanna, Jeric, Wai Leong, Lhai Lun……

首先恭喜DOMINIC找到工作和the other half. 虽然每周6天在东莞累是累了点,但是考虑到如今的经济状况,还是不错吧.

Delton和Sanna还是那么亲密,真羡慕他们.在此要特别感谢delton收留我一晚,陪同我到处去香港玩,也感谢他妈妈的栗子糖水和某样不知名香港早餐.我六月应该还会来的.到时和我一道回苏州,去旅游吧!

恭喜JERIC当选UAP LCP!一定要找机会好好讨论讨论partnership.

也恭喜WAI LEONG当选UPM LCP!真是1年多的重逢阿.

一年前:

一年后:

6. Suggstions:

推荐所有LCPe, EBe, New members去参加APX,你不会后悔的!

完.

标题取自Good Charlotte的一首歌. 灵感来自电影<<Into The Wild>>

影片是一个真是故事.讲的是一个成绩优异的美国大学生,热衷于文学. 大学毕业后,剪了自己ID,social secruity,捐了自己的存款,烧了剩下的钱,去流浪,最后目的地是阿拉斯加.死于食物中毒.

途中遇到各类人,其中一个问他,你为什么要去阿拉斯加?他说,城市里充满了虚伪,肮脏,模式化的大学生活,每天都做自己不想做的事.他要进入野外,没有电,没有食物,没有斧子,只有枪,刀,捕猎用.靠自己,一个人在大自然,去生活.

对,去生活! TO LIVE! 去学习,去体验.

不是在浑浑噩噩的过日子,而是去真正生活.

我并没有想去阿拉斯加独自打猎生存的想法,但是我却深深的想真正地拥抱生活.去为自己真正想要的而奋斗,而不是为了别人认为你应该成为的人去奋斗.

But don’t damn me

When I speak a piece of my mind

'Cause silence isn’t gold

When I’m holding it inside

其实标题与正文没有太大联系.

首先要恭喜自己能够坚持1点前睡觉,7.30起床.清晨自然醒是件令人感到幸福的事.具体怎么做到的?详情请见我之前两篇转载.

结果GUNONG STONG还是没有去成,在recess的时候去4天爬山实在是太奢侈了.不过这个让我多多少少想起了YELLOWSTONE的Beaver Ponds.

如图,大家看到的是我和Patrik在Beaver Ponds附近的岩石上下围棋.我们说好了,下次hiking的时候,不但要带上围棋,还要带上中国茶,然后爬到一半找个地方边喝茶边下棋.

最近在wira的共享文件夹里面发现了SAW.很早就听居里说过关于这本电影.不看不知道,一看……没有看过的强烈建议看一下.1-5,全部推荐.好像里面那个变态狂是学Mechanical Engineering的,才懂设计那些"精妙"仪器……大家要远离Sharon.

另一部类似的但是被称为暴力美学的电影,被吴迪推荐的,便是杀死比尔.鬼才导演昆廷塔伦蒂诺导演的.他曾导演过Pulp Fiction, Transpotting等等另类电影,同时也参演过一些,比如和乔治克鲁尼一起的From Dusk Till Dawn.

OK,回到主题,杀死比尔里面,日本黑帮人人用刀,但是主人公的刀明显质量较高,削铁如泥.其实这个与Material Engineering有关.满屋子的人都杀不死一个用刀的女人.日本人的枪哪里去了?

关于OSCAR

Slumdog Millionaire最后成为了赢家. The Economists有一片文章,标题是The Loser Is….大家可以去读读.奥斯卡的获奖影片往往都不是票房大卖,当然也不排除例外,如魔戒.

这个就好比诺贝尔文学奖也必须要一定的文学高度.像达芬奇密码就不会得到青睐,尽管很好看.必须是像高行健这种高层次文学作品.

可见大众喜欢的不一定是顶尖的艺术,可能这也说明了为什么艺术馆总没有电影院或者卡拉OK来的赚钱的原因.

从这个角度讲,可能世界上还是庸俗的人多.

惭愧的讲,我就是其中之一.

关于When You Say Nothing At All

其实这是Notting Hill里面的插曲,周六EB outing的时候weiwei和rachel唱的,才让我想起了这首歌和这部电影.

其实想说明两点.

1. William Thacker (Hugh Grant) 的口音很好听. 尤其是O音.让我回忆起了原来当年学的时候就是这么发的,被美国人影响了.

2. 新加坡太热了.

好,是时候学法语了.下次再会.

完.

How to Know How Much Sleep You Need

Steps

1. Determine a time when you will wake up every morning. Set your alarm for that time. If possible, set alarms to wake up earlier than that time to gradually awaken you.
2. Abstain from alcohol, caffeine, cigarettes, and medicines that can affect your sleep. Continue abstaining from the use of these products for the duration of the test (Consult your doctor before abstaining from prescribed medicines).
3. Go to sleep each night whenever you feel tired. If you cannot quickly fall asleep, get up and read, doodle, or do some other low-impact activity until you feel tired enough to sleep. In the beginning you may wake up earlier than the desired time, but your body should adjust within a few days.
4. Try to avoid taking naps. If you need to take a catnap of 10-15 minutes is fine, but otherwise just go to bed when you’re tired, even if it’s early in the evening. (Warning, REM does not usually occur until 90 minutes into sleep so try not to catnap.)
5. Continue the routine for two weeks. After two weeks your body will know that it has to get up at, for example, 7 A.M., so you will begin to feel tired at midnight if your body needs 7 hours of sleep.
6. Adjust your bedtime as necessary to compensate for new wake-up times.

Alternate Method

1. Abstain from sleep-altering products, as in step 2 above.
2. Choose a time to go to bed that will allow you about 7-9 hours of uninterrupted sleep before you need to wake up. Begin on a Sunday (if you work Monday through Friday).
3. Continue to go to bed at about the same time as on the first night, each night trying to get 7-9 hours of sleep.
4. On the next Saturday or Sunday, do not use an alarm, and sleep in as long as you feel like sleeping. You want to find out if you have been getting enough sleep or if you are instead running a “sleep deficit.” If you have been getting enough sleep, you should awake after about 7-9 hours and feel refreshed. If you are running a deficit you will probably sleep in longer (although you may wake up at the usual time out of habit, or you may sleep in longer even if you don’t really need it). It is best to turn off your clock completely on this day so that you won’t be triggered to stay awake if you happen to wake up briefly.
5. Adjust sleep time as necessary and repeat sequence for another week or two. If you found yourself sleeping in long after the usual time, it probably (but not necessarily) means that you need to get more sleep. Try adding an hour of sleep to your previous nightly allotment. If you woke up right on time (or before) and felt refreshed throughout the day, you’re probably getting enough sleep, and you can either repeat the sequence with the same number of hours per night, or you can decrease the number of hours slightly. There are myriad variables that can affect how much sleep you need or desire on a given day, so only through long-term observation can you approximate how much sleep you really need on average.

Tips

• If you are addicted to tobacco, alcohol, or some other drug, you may find it difficult to sleep while abstaining from that product. Thus, you should either address your addiction before using the steps above or perform the test without abstaining. The former choice is preferable, as such products can lessen the quality of your sleep, thus making you need more hours of sleep.
• Consider your age as a guideline. The amount of sleep you need depends on many factors, but in general the older you are, the less sleep you'll need (except when it comes to very old age). Newborns need to sleep about 16 out of every 24 hours, teenagers need about 9 hours a night, and adults typically need about 6-9.
• The amount of sleep you need will increase if you have been recently deprived of sleep.
• Women generally need more sleep during pregnancy.
• Sleep scientists really don't know how much sleep any given person needs. Some hold to the old 8 hours per night guideline, while others say it varies dramatically from person to person, with some people needing as little as 3 hours per night and others needing as much as 12 hours.
• If you or your partner notices that you have trouble sleeping, if you snore or are restless in your sleep, or if you feel tired during the day no matter how much sleep you get, you may have a sleep disorder. Talk to your doctor for further guidance and treatment.
• Keep in mind that a typical sleep cycle is around 90 minutes, so sleeping in multiples of 90 minutes (and as a result, waking up at the end of a sleep cycle) can help you get the most out of sleep sessions. Waking in the middle of a sleep cycle leads to drowsiness and confusion, whereas waking at the end of one will often have you feeling more refreshed and alert.

Warnings

• Sleep deprivation can be dangerous.
• Having too much sleep can be as dangerous as sleep deprivation.
• Sleep deprivation magnifies alcohol's effects on the body, so a fatigued person who then consumes alcohol will become even more impaired.
• Driver fatigue, like alcohol consumption, is responsible for many vehicle accidents.
• Do not watch TV when you're trying to fall asleep. This will stimulate your brain and only make it harder to drift off.
• Do not stop prescribed medications abruptly without speaking with your doctor. Some medications can have adverse effects when stopped too abruptly.

Related wikiHows

• How to Treat Insomnia
• How to Sleep Better
• How to Fall Asleep

Sources and Citations

• National Sleep Foundation Non-profit organization with information on sleep and sleep disorders
• The Economist Article on alternative theory of sleep
• Loughborough Sleep Research Center (UK)

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How to Wake Up On Time

Steps

1. Get enough sleep. It’s hard to drag yourself out of bed after one night of inadequate sleep, and chronic sleep deprivation (a sleep deficit) makes the task even harder. Determine how much sleep you need and make sure to get about that amount each night. At a bare minimum, when waking up on time is crucial, you should try very hard to go to sleep for at least seven hours, even if you have otherwise restful sleep patterns. Your body can't "store" sleep.
2. Get into a rhythm. Your body’s clock follows a circadian rhythm. If your rhythm is set properly, you may be able to regularly wake up refreshed without an alarm, but if it’s not you’ll wake up groggy or even sleep through your alarm altogether. Make an effort to get to bed and to get up at about the same times every day. If you work changing shifts or otherwise have to adjust your schedule, your rhythm will be thrown off for a while, but you can reset it over a few days.
3. Adjust for your sleep cycles. The typical human sleep cycle is 90 minutes. Adjust the time you wake up or the time you go to bed so that you sleep for some multiple of 90 minutes (6, 7.5 or 9 hours, for example), and you’ll wake up more refreshed.
4. Sleep well. Eight hours of sleep won’t help you much if you don’t get quality sleep. Minimize disturbances that may wake you up in the night:
   • Get a comfortable bed
   • Set your thermostat so you’ll sleep at a comfortable temperature
   • Reduce external noises by closing windows, turning off the TV, or using a device that generates constant “white noise.”
   • Guard against mosquitos if you are in a place where mosquito problem is , take preventive measures so you are fully guarded against them when asleep.
   • Consider getting a larger bed or sleeping in separated beds if your spouse or partner wakes you up with his or her tossing and turning. Better yet, get a mattress that absorbs motion and will not be felt by your partner.
   • Abstain from caffeine and alcohol, especially at night.
   • Read the related wikiHows for more tips on getting to sleep and getting quality sleep.
5. Get the right alarm clock. Some people need a very loud, harsh alarm, some can’t wake up to the radio, and some find that gradual waking works best. There are even alarms to stick near you that will vibrate to awake you. Experiment to find the alarm clock that’s best for you.
6. Position your alarm clock so that you have to get out of bed to turn it off. It’s quite common to reach over to the nightstand, turn off the alarm, and go back to sleep without even remembering doing so. If you have to get out of bed and walk across the room, however, you’re more likely to stay awake.
7. Set multiple alarm clocks. If you know that one alarm will not wake you up permanently, set more than one to go off. You can set them both for the same time if you have trouble hearing just one, or you can set the second to go off 5-10 minutes after the first. You may find it helps if they make different sounds.
8. Get someone to help you. If your spouse or partner doesn’t have trouble waking up on time, ask him or her to help you wake up and to make sure you stay awake. A reliable roommate might also be willing to help if you give him or her a few bucks or cook breakfast. You could also ask a friend to call you in the morning and talk to you for a minute or so until you become fully awake. If you can’t find a reliable friend who’s willing to help, get a wakeup call. Long a staple in hotels, wakeup calls to your home or cell phone are now available by subscription or for one-time calls.
9. Get out of bed if you wake up a few minutes before your alarm rings. Because of nightly hormonal changes to natural sleep cycles, many people find that they wake up a few minutes before their alarm goes off. If this occurs, consider it a sign that you’re ready to get up. If you go back to sleep to wait for the alarm, you’ll likely feel more drowsy.
10. Brighten up your bedroom. The body naturally wakes up faster when it’s light out, so keep your curtains open to use the sun to help you awake. If you need to wake up when it’s dark, or if you live in a dreary, cloudy place, consider using a timer on your bedroom lamp or getting a light box or a bedside dawn simulator.
11. Get pumped. When you wake up, get out of bed immediately, switch on some music (the more energetic the better), and get moving. Do some calisthenics or quickly go about your morning routine.
12. Take a shower as soon as you get out of bed, alternating the temperatures between hot and cold to get your circulation going. Use shower gels with ingredients such as lemon or peppermint essential oils to help make you more alert. If a shower is not possible, try putting a couple of drops of essential oils onto a tissue and inhaling their fragrance. Some alarm clocks now have aromatherapy components built in, as well.
13. Have a drink. Drinking some water as soon as you wake up stimulates the body and will help you stay awake. If you need something stronger, try coffee or tea. If you have trouble making it out of your bedroom without coffee, consider putting your coffeemaker in your room and setting the timer so that a cup of Joe will be waiting for you when you wake up.
14. Use a very loud alarm like the windup clock pictured above. Place the clock inside a kitchen pot or other metal container turned upside down.

Tips

• If all else fails, just put your alarm clock away from your bed, and extra loud. You wont be able to sleep, if you don't get up.
• After setting your alarm clock, put it in a box, lock it with a key and put the key in the farthest corner of the house. You should be awake by the time you get it unlocked to turn it off.
• Try placing peppermints, Tic-Tacs, gum, or any kind of food on top of your alarm. When the alarm goes off, pop some into your mouth before turning it off. No matter how sleepy you are, you can't fall asleep with something in your mouth. Additionally, mint flavor can increase your alertness.
• There are some really great gadgets out there that will help you to wake up in the mornings. Try the Puzzle Clock for example. The key is to get your mind moving, and to give yourself a chance to remember that you don't want to go back to sleep!
• There are some clocks out there that have a part that either flies or rolls around, and in order to shut the alarm off, you have to catch them and return them to the alarm base. Ex. "Clocky Mobile Alarm Clock" or "Blowfly Alarm Clock"
• If you know that you find it difficult to function in the mornings, prepare as much as you can the night before, so that you have less to worry about when you wake up.
• Before you go to sleep, try telling yourself what time you want to wake up. It may sound strange, but often works.
• You might want to give yourself a tiny boost in the morning by having something to look forward to. It doesn't have to be something big, but just something that will brighten your day and make you want to get out of bed.
• Splash your face with cold water. The cold water will wake you up, and you can get a move on from there.
• Make sure that your alarm is properly set before going to bed.
• Make sure to remember all the reasons you need to get right out of bed.
• It also helps to have a loud alarm clock. This will wake you up rapidly and eventually your body will adapt to waking at the sound of anything.
• A B-complex vitamin supplement may help a person to establish (or change) a natural circadian rhythm.
• Try putting a slice of lemon next to your alarm, when you shut off your alarm, lick or suck on the lemon. That'll wake you up for sure!
• Get a whiteboard and write down a few good things that you're looking forward to (even if it's getting home!) for motivational purposes. Also write down a few mandatory things you need to do in the morning. For example, you may need to finish typing your report. Write that down.
• Try drinking something before you go to sleep, such as a bottle of water. By the time your alarm goes off, you will probably have to use the bathroom and won't be able to go back to sleep comfortably.

Warnings

• Sleep aid drugs may help you to get to sleep and to get a better night’s rest, but they may also leave you too drowsy to wake up when you need to. They can also be addictive, so avoid using them if possible, especially over long periods of time.
• Don’t go back to bed. After you’ve been up and moving for a while, it’s sometimes tempting to lie down “just for a minute or so.” Don’t do it; all your preparations will be down the drain if you fall asleep unexpectedly. Your tiredness will soon pass if you stay up.
• Chronic difficulty sleeping or frequent tiredness may be caused by a sleep disorder or other medical condition. Check with your doctor if these symptoms persist.
• If you drink something before bed, make sure it doesnt have a lot of sugar or caffeine. Water works best.

Related wikiHows

• How to Wake Up Without an Alarm Clock
• How to Be Punctual
• How to Know How Much Sleep You Need

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取自于Queen的"Hammer to Fall”,描述我的生活.

看过很多彦楠的blog,描述她生活的种种不幸遭遇.大多数让我联想到消极的抱怨.其实每个人都有自己的生活方式,不必比较.

我妈有一次对我说,每次问我一周过的怎么样,答案总是很好,她说她知道我肯定有这样那样的困难,只是没有和她说罢了.

Steve Jos鼓励斯坦福的学生要用勇气follow your heart.读到现在,俨然已发现自己不是工程师的料,坦白讲我GPA不算低,但是这并不代表我适合做工程师,再坦白讲,我对半导体,对二极管,对交变电流一点兴趣都没有,只是被训练了那么多年了,思维模式如此,学习是为了学习而学习,学习life science简直是对我的虐待.相反的,我对EE2004,Programming却很感兴趣,好比Marketing和French.

往往生活的一部分是无奈的.不能拿Marketing Major因为我不是也不能是商学院学生,学法语的时间被AIESEC和无聊的电路主课占用的差不多了,跟何况之前的AIESEC LCP Election的准备和马来西亚之旅让我翘了些课,现在就更忙着补课了.

3月21-28, APX(Asia Pacific Exchange Leadership Development Seminar),需要跷课一周在香港,可以去看Dominic,Drew,可惜Phoebe去复旦交流了只是回来课又有的补了.

现在面临两个选择. 1.好好学好主课,忍,再拿几个dean's list,然后以较高GPA痛苦毕业. 2.暂放主课,好好学法语,好好干AIESEC,develop my competency,多看课外书,做几份internship,目标GPA4.5,一等荣誉学位毕业.

我急需和我的mentor见一次面,不是NTU那个.

Nicolas Cage有本电影,The Weatherman,里面有句台词"Easy doesn’t enter adult’s life. In this shit life, we must chuck something.”

无论什么决定,一定要努力生活.

看到sharon在台湾生活的blog,突然自己也很想早点开始工作.但是回头想想,大学生活只有一次,多少工作人士对我说过,大学生活是多么美好,多么值得留恋,工作是多么无聊.

我问自己:"10年后我回首,究竟是什么让我的大学生活值得我回味与留恋?"

于是我做了一件事.我写了一个单子,上面列了我一定要在大学毕业,开始工作之前完成的事.介于个人隐私,在此不予公开.

还有两年半.

我向前望去,一座山,很高很高,我知道自己一定能爬过去,但是不能想象我是怎么爬的,中间会不会缺胳膊断腿.

"I just gotta get out of this prison cell. One day I’m gonna break free!” --- Queen